glenn sent me home in his car, along with john, tom and amanda. super duper nice of him! THANKYOU! -smilesbigbig!

anyway, i tell you! you won't believe. i won this super pro @ pool 2 rounds consecutively! -beams. so proud of myself i tell you! hahahah. though there were a lot of .. tyco-ness lahhhhhh. but but! the point should be i won right?! :D

kahyuen, thanks for everything. (:


statistics assignment today was okay. but .. i think i'll get about 20/25 only. damn sad. another 5% wasted. x( you know, for my statistics, my final year examination is 65% worth. walaoo. damn scary. :(

anyway! i'm damn happy. :D cause hor! my sociology online quiz is only due in january. initially i thought it was due this sunday luhhh. but damn happy! i don't have to do it yet! cause i haven't bought the textbook. x)) hehe.

and! benchow is super nice! he actually remembers about my marketingfundamentals paper thing. -smiles. thankyou!


18 more days to OTC! :D



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OH YAH. how can i forget! i met two really .. ______ people in the lounge today. seriously, i don't understand how they can be so stingy, petty, and whatever. for goodness' sake, for $1, you want to make the whole world hate you. is there any point?!

boo. bullies.

school is stressed now. blame it on myself for missing so many lectures and tutorials. i don't quite get what's going on in school anymore. plus, mid-semester tests are already around the corner. boo. x(

jiayou lynette!


anyway, i was in my sociology tutorial today. and mrs/miss ann marie said something interesting, and funny. hahah.

you know the 5 Cs? cash, condo, credit cards, club and car?
it's been replaced with 5 Bs now. hahah.
Cash - Billion dollars
Condo - Bungalow
Credit cards - who needs credit cards if you have a Billion dollars?
Club - Beach (lol, imagine owning beaches.)
Car - Bmw/Benz

hahah, quite funny the way she said it.


hmmm, i observed this trend. that whenever guys gathering together around a laptop/desktop, they'll start surfing for chiobus on friendster. what's with them ah? lol, don't get it.

recently, i've been having quite a few unknown people adding me. like, really out of nowhere. =.= maybe my friendster .. but yah, i think it'd be more polite to message me on friendster first, instead of adding me right away on msn. =/ though i seriously don't mind. just commenting. hahah. it's a good way of making friends! (: a bit freaky some times though .. just don't freak me out aight?

anyway. adrian is my best friend! :D hahah, so random.

and kahyuen, thanks for your concern. ((:


two more days till the weekends! tahannnnnnnnnnnnn! :D

i think a lot of people very stony/stressed/emo today. so cheer up! (:

<3

i have never thought of myself as someone who would only respect authority. i respect every single person i know, as far as i'm concerned.

and i treat different people differently. and if that labels me as a hypocrite, bootlicker, suck-up, or whatever, by all means.

i've treated subcomms and excos fairly; such as claudine, mark, adrian, eric, benchow, amanda, ashely, amos, isaac, and many others.

if you feel that i suddenly treat you differently, shouldn't you be wondering what happened that made me feel this way? instead of pushing everything to me getting close to ex-cos.

hitting, suaning. is something i do to everyone. excos, non-excos, whoever. pouring water? i thought it was all in the name of fun, and we both understood that. plus i have already apologised back then. why say nevermind when you actually mind and even digging it out now? i don't get you.


i'm bad at expressing myself, so i don't want to say anymore.

but maybe, just maybe, you should think of other reasons, besides this, of why i'm treating you the way i am now.


actually, i told myself to get over this already. but what really affected me was, you claim that a few others are tired of my attitude. which was really a shot in my heart.

but you know what. i shouldn't be down, no i shouldn't. there are so many others who are supporting me and believes that i am not this way. so many that it's maybe more than the few others you claim. if i were to stay this way, it's only disappointment to those who believe in me. just like how i was disappointed when you had looked at me this way. but my friends don't deserve this from me. my true friends are my motivation, and will always continue to be.

if you haven't communicate with me on a heart-to-heart basis, please don't assume anymore. get to know me, before you make your conclusion.

and that's the least you can do for anyone; give them a chance.

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i have a new blog @ livejournal. restricted to friends only. so make an account if you want to be added yeah? just ask me for the link. (:

was out with hakim today. it was fun. (: thanks for the company and vice versa! =p we shall go to the arcade again yeah!

i have learnt that we really cannot please everyone in life, no matter how hard you try. one matter, can be perceived in many ways. one bad, can kill all the good you have.

you know, i really hate being accused. i hate it more than i hate insects. i swear. if there's one thing i hate in this world, is being accused of something i haven't done.

and currently, at this very moment, i feel so accused. i feel this need to justify myself on this very blog. i can type entries after entries on how unjustified i feel now, and how i feel that maybe you don't have much of a right to point fingers at me.

but i'm not going to.

i just feel so .. on the verge of breaking down. maybe this is not how i want it. i don't think i can do it. do you think i can?


thanks glenn, hakim, claudine, mark, gideon, nicholas and grace.

have you ever tried putting yourself in my shoes? i really thought you would understand all these effort i've been making. it's been really tough these days, but i've been trying to be really strong; trying to stand on my own, at long last. please don't force me, especially emotional blackmails. if you think you cannot afford to trust me, then it's just so sad.


anyway, ITE Simei's 4th student council investiture was quite interesting, and maybe a little funny. hahah. we didn't stay for the reception, went straight off after that.

overall, interesting day. (:

hahah, thanks to glenn for tolerating my nonsense. boo, i think i was mean today. but he was nice lah, although he likes to bully me. :( and and! stop shouting at me okay! it's meann.

mental note: don't overstep boundaries.

after which, went dinner with my dad. nothing much. home after that.

thanks glenn, for your concern. (: so damn sweet. ^^

thanks bei. it really feels good to know that someone out there still cares about my presence. (:

thanks nicholas. for listening to my complaints and whinings. :D

and to hadi: i really don't know what i should say. i don't know if those tags were enough to explain myself. maybe it was you being oversensitive. maybe it was me carrying myself in a wrong way. but whatever it is, if you wanna hold on to what you blogged, then i guess there's really nothing i can do. sorry if i've offended you, it was unintended.


getting close to the ex-cos and seniors was never something i purposely wanted. they were just easy to talk to, easy to get along with, and fun to be with. and it was because of them, that's why i feel motivated to run. it was never the other way round. they've inspired me in a lot of ways you guys will never know; and all i want is to return them with a genuine friendship, and help when they need it.

if any of you want to substitute all these with only one word: change
then i'm speechless.


take care people. please remember i'm the same, and i'll still love you all. <3

i missed out on something i should have blogged quite some time ago.

dearest, it's really belated i know. but i hope you can feel these wishes from the bottom of my heart. that was the first time i showed you direct concern; a message to wish that everything is alright for you and that i still love you. i know you've been strong, but tired out by everything of this world. but i wish that just for me, you would continue perserving, holding on. you really hold the utmost position in my heart, and i hope you can feel this love from me, even if i do not show it. please, take care. <3

please don't ask me who at all, i won't say it to a single soul. just know that this person is super duper important.


okay, anyways. i wanna apologise to mark and ciu fen, for being such an irresponsible person. really sorry. :( i was very tired, but i know that shouldn't be an excuse. and i'm very grateful for your forgiveness. ((:

so, GL briefing was okay. a bit messy here and there. but overall, it was still okay lah. (: i'm extremely excited about this event! 23 more days! :D

congrats to fion and badd, for a successful appeal attempt on being a GL! super happy for you two lah! :DD

rushed down to meet my dad, his birthday is today. was supposed to be a long night, but some stuff happened. so .. changed location. but leonard couldn't enter the place, cause he is underaged. so i accompanied him home. (: dad had a really nice birthday cake though! $200. wow. but really really unique. (: dad promised me that for my birthday! -beams!

to you: i'm really super happy for you that you got back your stuff. (:

mental note:
maybe i shouldn't expect the same behaviour from everyone. i should learn to accept people's differences, and that their reactions might not be positive afterall.

sigh, i was a bit .. shaken. maybe it was because i was overly-sensitive. maybe it was because i expected better. maybe it was because you were too sharp with your words. but maybe it was really nothing much, and i'm making a mountain out of a molehill. bah. i hate to take stuff like these so seriously. but i can't help it; it affects me alot, little stuffs like that.
it's just sad to feel that it never mattered to you, when i'm trying so hard.

putting that aside, i am really happy these days. alot happier than back then. and it's all thanks to the people inside. from the ex-cos, to the subcomms. all my friends can see that, and i think they're really happy for me. -smiles.

to subcomms: i hope you guys don't think i'm a hypocrite or whatever, trying to suck up to the seniors. i know i appeared out of nowhere in semester 1.2, and suddenly became closer to the more senior people in SU. but .. i don't know lah. i just felt that i can relate to them better. i'm sorry if i made you feel that way okay?
emphasis: i don't mean to say it's happening now, but i just wanna reduce the chances of people feeling that way.

and a clarification to something i've been hearing.
i did not quit dance just because of SU.
please make that clear. it matters to me.

anyways. i wanna give special thanks to gideon. (: who has been trying to help me in so many areas, teaching me so many things i need to learn. and most importantly, trusting and believing in me. thankyou. ((: <3

going to some event at ite simei with claudine and a few other ex-cos. i'm excited! it's the first time for me, and i'm really hoping i can learn alot of stuff. (: thanks for giving me this opportunity. greatly appreciated. (:

i need time for myself. make personal changes, etc. so that i can be a better person. and i hope i can earn some respect for myself, because people feel that i deserve it. i don't want to be seen as someone who just wants to have fun, and play. i want to be seen as trustable, responsible, dependable and mature. please help me along the way okay? (:


once again, thanks for everything everyone. for the love you've been showering, for the concern you've been showing, for letting me know that you'll always be behind me supporting me, for understanding that i'm walking towards a certain goal and helping me. simply for everything.

<3

he lets me mess his hair. :D hahah.

anyway, what the! i just realised i never blog about me getting a new bag! AHH! how can that be?!?!!!


there you got. :D limited edition of krumpler, i think. totally <3.

a few outdated , but very much treasured photos. (:


i'll totally miss them.


but back to reality, i'm having a lot of fun these days. i even see myself being so interested in learning and changing for the better. i believe it's for my own good as well, and i'm very happy. (:

claud&me in the toilet!


i think claudine looks so cute in this picture. (:

camwhoring in lounge!





xmas tree!


he says i'm his eyecandy! hahahah. :D


today, i feel that i've made two of the most meaningful wishes in my life.
1. wish that everything will go well for tpsu.
2. wish that subcomms can love each other more and accept each others' differences.
sincerely, truly, madly, deeply. (:

to you: you've been so optimistic about the loss. (: but i hope you get your stuff back eventually. -wishes.

lastly, here i am wishing that nothing changes before, during or after elections next year. it sucks to see things turn ugly just because of these stuff. seriously no point at all. so if you think you're up to the duties of an ex-co, go ahead and run! but make sure you are responsible and committed enough. unsure? talk more to ex-cos please, before finalising your decision. (:


take care people! :D

i've made my decision, finally and painstakingly. and have also told whoever is concerned. which .. wasn't as bad as i thought it would be at all. "if ya wanna come back someday jus come back for audition" was the reply i got. which is more than enough for me. (: and now, what i wanna do is to be focused on what i want to do in my 3 years of poly life. (:

to hiro, james, kevin and glenn. thank you for listening to me and advising me on this matter. all your opinions mattered a hell lot to me. (:

moving on, i love being in the student lounge these days, like really. the atmosphere and everything, just makes it feel real good. fuzzy feeling. heh.

oh! congrats to those who have been selected to be a GL! see you around for OTC! :D

on a very random note, i like yeeping and kahyuen alot. (: for some reason, i'm damn attracted to the two of them. maybe cause i'm a bit on the crooked side .. HAHAH. but yup! i think they're damn nice! ^^

lastly, to hadi.
thanks for those words of encouragement. i really super duper appreciate it; it was like the word in season. i don't know how to say it, but it seriously helped in a lot of ways, especially in boosting my self-esteem. thankyou. (:

take care people! come lounge more often! HAHAH.
<3

INTRODUCING TO YOU ALL MY OFFICIAL SCANDAL #1: HAKIM! :DD



hehe. so cute hor? xD i am his only scandal! and i feel so honoured! :D hahahaha!


went to watch the competition: butts off.
was okay, not bad. (:

to my eyecandy: don't worry kay. you all did your best! ^^


i am no good at making decisions when it comes to my own life. but now, i have to choose a path, and .. i think i have chosen. this time, i want to live it to the best and never regret the path i've chosen to walk! my dear friends, give me support okay? i need it. thanks.

love you guys totally! <3

i am supposed to be asleep now, but being ever-so-stupid, i ended up washing my hair when i'm supposed to just take a quick bath. so nevermind, i shall blog while waiting for my hair to dry.

i just wanna say i had a great past two days; the craziest days after so long. and i really really treasure those moments! (: there are many who really made my day!

hakim
my new found scandal! :D heh, thanks for everythingggg! really super duper appreciate it and enjoy your company! you owe me a date, remember hor! :D

glenn
thanks for everything! like, trying to entertain me when you are pretty much busy yourself, learning those dance steps so seriously, even though you know you really can't do it, etc etc etc. super duper enjoyed your company and thanks for all those patience! ((:

claudine
wooh! my sexylove! :D thanks for everything sia! your company etc. appreciated everything today! :D

isaac
boooo! thankyouuuuuuu my new friend. :D heh, you're so fun to be with. thanks for all the company! ^^

amos
ahaha, you suck! xD no lahhh, thanks for all the crappiness, etc. you really made everything more fun. (: new new friend! :D

tom
for letting me draw on your hand! haha, thanks for your kind patience and not-so-kind treatment. =p

john
i don't really know what to say, but i feel alot of gratitude towards you. ((: thanks!

those guys from st.gabs
thanks man! seriously, you guys were so fun to be with. (: thanks for entertaining my nonsense. hahahh, and i'm glad you guys didn't find it irritating. (:

so far, that's all i can remember. will update again! bed now. :D

nothing exactly bad happened today. just that i simply weren't in top form; i felt tired physically and drained emotionally.

but with the best of my efforts, i put on a smile and faced the world. but ..
it was really difficult.especially when it came to facing you all. i just feel so horrible about myself.
nevermind.


but really thanks to mark and meimei who made it a good day for me. (: thanks for being so sweet and everything. just those little actions make me smile. (: <3

tprawks tomorrow, or rather later. i just wish i would dare to dance. i hope that i will feel good enough about myself to dare to dance. it's a come-and-go thing, but 95% of the time, it's not there. sigh.

okay, off to bed. nights people. i love you all. <3

hmm, i don't wanna force myself to blog; it sucks to make something i enjoy doing an obligation. so yup, will update when i don't get so drained out physically. (: and maybe when people like james and kevin stop suaning me so much. x_x bullies.

i really don't like my timetable. 9am everyday is killing me. i think i'll shift all my 9am lectures somewhere else. =.= .. and i've been missing alot of my lectures. there goes my gpa lah.

i'll marry whoever can make me less tired. sigh.


take cares people! <3 and because i love you guys so much. here's a picture of me. xD



heh. my favourite picture currently. oops, not being self-obsessed.

loves!

steph, mel, kev, jj, mer and my two brothers were totally <3 today! (: and i had fun today! -smilesbigbig.

was supposed to go iceskating. but by the time we reached there, it was already two. and their rink closes at 1530. =.= soooooo! we went to kbox instead! :D was just so much fun inside! but no photos. :(

hehe. we can have this once every fortnight! so fun! :D

special special thanks to my youngest brother for carrying my skates for me today. really super duper appreciate it. ((: !


but the sad thing is.. tomorrow is a monday already. :(( sigh.

i'm pretty packed this week. but i cannot even remember what i have on whatever days. i know there's a briefing for me to attend on tuesday. after which, there is dance training. tprawks-dance for me on thursday. and tpsu-ccn day on friday.

and i promised meimei and jack (i think) that i'd go out with them this week. and somewhere this week, i got to meet my socio groupmates to watch a movie with them. i think the wiser choice now would be to ask them to watch at their own time. x_x

boo. packed weeks are fun, but tiring and draining. what makes it worse is that i seem to be forgetting alot of stuff here and there. i know i've jotted it down somewhere, but i don't know where. bleh ..

but whatever it is, take care everyone. weather's been bad these days. sleep early, and drink more water. it'll make your immune system stronger.

and specially to you, i wish you could at least give me some response instead of just ignoring our messages. please take care and get back to me as soon as possible yeah? better still if i can meet you tomorrow.. -hugs. take cares please.


<3lyn.

talk about being responsible. har.

i don't want to elaborate, and i don't wanna rub it in. but next time, at least be responsible enough to inform me before i ask.

crap. another time. i don't wanna ask people go ice-skating in future already. =.=

i know i'm damn slow. but that isn't gonna stop me from saying it.

i'm so damn amazed by bianca ryan. omggggggggg.

okay, if you're slower than me, it's okay. hahaaha. bianca ryan is the winner of america's got talent season 1. omg. she sings really well and knows how to carry herself on stage. totally wow.



check her out man! that's her audition clip. (:

but i think she did better in her recording though. (:

HELLO HELLO HELLO! :D

i just got to share this! make sure you hear the whole thing!



heard that?!?!?!?!?!! and it's live for goodness' sake. so scary. hahaha. and she's from CHINA! okay lah, not trying to be prejudiced or whatever. but, quite amazing sia, for a china girl. hahaha. damn impressed!


next up will be photos! camwhoring on kevin's laptop as usual. x)



loves of the day! (:




jj don't want take picture with lynette. :( but i'm posting it anyway! i look cute! HAHAHA.


hehe. so cute hor! :D

selfobsession! x)




lastly, favourite picture of the day! :D


actually i got a lot of other photos. but if i were to upload all of them here, i think your computer will hang. or you will stop reading my blog. hahaha. so forget it. :D


heh. actually i got a few more stuff i haven't updated. actually i forgot about it lah. =x


this is the super cute shoes hiro got for me! :D thankyouuu! ^^


see this? it's done by this guy called larry hoo. and he still dare pose for me when i said i'm gonna blog this up.


there you go! larry hoo. idiottt. haha.

and lastly, i was in lecture a few days back. and .. there was something wrong with the clock lah. =.=



so according to this clock, seems like we've been inside lecture for almost 24 hours. x_x lol, but was damn stupid.


yupp. that's all. happy deepavali! :D

i reached home not very long ago; cabbed with hakim. took a bath and here i am blogging. i feel so much that i need to blog.

today i attended tpsu's ex-cos monthly meeting. to all sub-comms, if you didn't know, it's actually open for us to go and sit in as observants. (i just knew it today also.) it was draggy, but not boring. in fact, there was quite a bit of laughter. (:

hmm, did a small presentation on the subcomm gathering event that hadi, xiao ming and me are planning. i think it was good experience. but of course i was a bit scared and nervous .. and i'm usually quite embarrassed when it comes to such stuff. but i will overcome it! i just need a little more confidence in myself and the things i do and i'll be just fine. (:

attending this meeting .. has moved me a lot in many ways. but also made me think of what i really want in my poly life. life's full of choices, and we've got to make them anyways. yupp.

thanks to hakim for lending me your jacket. (: heh.

and yah! thanks to kim jian for actually remembering to buy me something! so sweet. (:


my whole mind is revolving around tpsu at the moment. haha, i feel so responsible. i'm sending a long long email to hadi and xiao ming to remind them of everything about our plans. :DD and the email is damn long. i don't think i've ever typed such a long email. haha.


okay. brain cells dead. goodbye! (:

dedicatd to my beloved friend; you.
it always feels better to be able to relate to a song, and i hope this does the job. crying will make you feel better. just cry it all out. you know i'll be here. -hugs.


thanks to lisheng for introducing the song. (:

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went to watch the game plan today with hiro. very funny, cute and touching. (: to me, it's worth watching. so go watch it if you haven't! (:

i want to watch so many other shows! hmm, like stardust, bee movie, the golden compass, enchanted and mr. magorium's wonder emporium. hahahaha. :D

nowadays i think i abit weird, have been getting alot of 'first time'. like the first pink dolphin drink i bought a few days back, first box of hei bai pei i bought yesterday and first cream puff from beard papa. hmm ..


and hiro bought me a lot of stuff from malaysia. heh, thanks! :D so cutee. i upload the pictures another time. ^^


take care people. <3

today .. was just a bad day for me. i think it's one of the worst i've ever had. i feel so drained; physically, emotionally and mentally.


it started off really bad, with kenneth fong as my macroeconomics teacher. i will agree it's our fault to talk during class in the first place, but what's with his long speeches and stuff? =.= ..
and i'm intending to have a really peaceful class, and not have any disputes or backstabbing among us. so .. if any of you guys are offended by the event today, please just forgive and forget okay? i think none of us meant harm. cheers. (:


i don't know what to say and i don't really know how to be myself in front of you again. it's like .. i feel so cheated. or is it just me over-reacting? i don't know. i feel like the bad person now, and i really hate feeling that way. or maybe i just won't do anything about it. care less, they say. maybe then i won't be feeling this horrible now.


thanks james for keeping me company. (: even thought you zhao-ed to kaiwen in the end .. haha. and thanks to tpsu subcomms for all those laughters in the lounge. (:

hmm, i've been entrusted with the task of organizing a subcomm gathering for tpsu, along with hadi and xiao ming. so hopefully i leave them with a positive impression of myself. (:

details will be up at a later date, but it should be held at about late november? (:


thanks junhui and ciu fen for helping me print the notes, and jashawn for lending me your correction tape, etc. (:


i didn't go for sociology lecture in the end. talked alot to grace though, which i believe is more fruitful than going for that lecture. hahaha.

thanks girl, for trying to listen even though you're facing so many stuff yourself. you know, i'm just so lost by myself and i can't make decisions. so really, thanks for hearing all my rantings. (: please know that i'll always always be here for you. take cares. friends forever. <3


oh, also thanks kev for the laptop. (: thanks for being able to trust me with your $2700 laptop. =p heh. appreciated! (:


i love the corn flakes thing @ a1. and i miss the mango smoothie @ the crepes place. boooo. soon soon!


so i sent grace home. and i started getting this splitting headache. nevermind .. went to the bus stop, and missed my bus number 30. waiting for another 40 minutes before the next 30 came. and to make you feel worse, two of bus 30 came together. =.=

and it's like you're not drained out by everything enough. on bus 225, out of nowhere a bee appeared right in front of me. .. =.=

nevermind .. reached my floor, and i saw a grasshopper/cricket? wah, what the hell i tell you.

HOW MANY TIMES MUST I REPEAT! OMG! i hate insects!! truly, madly, deeply!


and to you. i miss you. i miss all those times we spent just chatting about our lives. i really appreciated all the little thoughts and efforts from you in the past, and wish that everything is still the same now. i wish you had more time for me. i wish i am still that little sister in your heart, one whom you've showered so much love and concern on. am i still..? maybe it's just me being too egoistic, but i just wanna feel that you still want me in your life, not just the other way round..
misses.

i have dance tomorrow at night. and meeting with tpsu's ex-cos on wednesday. hope everything goes fine. (:


my wrist hurt like mad today.


thoughts for today:

you've been all my confidence. i feel like i'm nothing good enough in front of everyone; everyone but you ..

all those have become used-to-be`s and nothing more. there will be no one there for me like you always do anymore.

it sucks when you get too fair; when you treat me just like anyone else ..


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thanks to eyecandy for cheering me up! (: who has such nice eyecandies man .. -fortunate me- ((:

and yah! thanks to meimei! for that sweet message. (: really thoughtful of you. (:

i feel so horrible about myself.
i've never thought i was this mean.
maybe cause i've been praised all the time, that's why i can't take this criticism now.
sigh, makes me feel really horrible about myself.
..

HELLO! :D

this entry will be a super self-obsessed entry, so if you know it will result in you thinking that i think i'm oh-so-great/cute or anything, then just click on the "x" at the top right hand corner of your window.

you've been warned. (:


HAHAHA. I WAS TALKING TO MY EYECANDY!!

all those hypocrisy. says:
hehe. so will you be my boyfriend ?
all those hypocrisy. says:
LOL.
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
wahaha
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
welll..... hmmm.. i MIGHT consider..
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
haha


HAHAHA. but that's NOT the main point! :D

~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
haiyah.. u oso cuTe wad
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
haha
all those hypocrisy. says:
HAHA. you cuterrrr !!
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
at least the cuTest girl in tpde lar
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
haha
all those hypocrisy. says:
WAH. really ah ? x)
all those hypocrisy. says:
-feels so complimented-
all those hypocrisy. says:
HAHAHA.
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
haha
~* F.A.D.Z *~ For you Ill make a song ~+ messofmylife.blogspot.com *~ says:
yahhhhh. haha


LOL! :D

you'll feel as happy as me if your eye candy said that to you. :DD

NEVERMIND! you all don't think i cute but my eye candy does.

HAHAAHA. okay, but my head won't swell i promise. (:

just damn happy! my eye candy leh!

heh. :DD


(please do not start rumoring that i think i'm damn cute or whatever. please please please. thankyou.(: )

maybe i've been too sensitive. it's the third person already. but still, they say they're okay with me. (: and that makes me really happy! because i have one less person who doesn't like me. it really makes my day! -smilesbigbig.


but as for you .. i don't know how to say.

i feel that one person should try to build up a friendship with one person, before building another one. erm, crap. that's not what i mean, but .. it's somewhere along that line. it's not nice to make people feel that your friendship with another person is more important than with him/her.

i don't know. don't make me start doubting you okay? if you think it's referring to you, then maybe it is because you are guilty of not appreciating your friendships. so start appreciating them! (:

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i just don't understand. why one can be so hypocrite. i really see no need to be so. it just makes everyone not like you at the end of the day. so, what's the point?

i don't know. i really thought you were damn nice, till everything started happening. can you prove me with actions that what i'm seeing and hearing ain't true?

i treasure my friendship with you. but it really doesn't seem like you do. it hurts when you seem happier with other people instead of me. maybe i'm just over-sensitive, but i just think it's damn sad. it feels so .. one sided of me.

what should i do now?

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i feel really horrible about myself.

i feel so horrible that i think i should just be isolated on an island to die a friendless person. i feel like i'm not good enough and don't deserve to be anyone's friend.

it sucks. it's like everything is taking a toll on you all at one go. and yet you can't share with anyone, and you've got to pretend like everything's alright.

all my life, i've been searching for you
and i wonder if you've found me too

lynette. lyn. thirtysevenn.
28th january 1989.
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